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Monday, December 20, 2004  Super Size Me 
 Ist Macs' at Shenzhen
 Aberdeen
 Repulse Bay..one of the houses in the background belongs to Jackie Chan.
 Taken on Victoria Peak
One of my earlier poems
See The Art in Him Feint answers or just my imagination? A non-empirical being’s attempt at connecting? My mind’s in a twirl and the world seems to whirl. Lost in the mundane and senseless routine of life, I ask, “Where’s He leading me to?” As night turns to dusk, the reply seems to take an eternity. Am I oblivious to Him? For I see no art in Him. ~reptile Saturday, December 18, 2004 
Hong Kong, viewed from Kowloon
 Avenue of Stars
 Hong Kong, my fav city as of now.
Monday, December 06, 2004 since my last entry, i ve gone tru my 5th exam in NUS n i can't describe enough the immense joy i had when the exams were over. It was not exactly healthy n inspiring to be cooped up in yr rm, labouring over tutorials, notes, worked examples, equations which were touched for the very first time(therein arose the despair n desperation), havin irregular meals n sleep(then again what sleep!), listening to self-deprecating songs(not all the times of course n by sheer will) and encapsulated by the bubble of uncertainties of life. i m glad to say tt my faith n ever-trustworthy frens have kept me sane and prevented me from self-mutilation, getting OD on aspirin or some other vile substances n other what-nots.above all i think ive somewhat gained a new perspective of life...exams -> degree ->dream job -> money, status...do all these satisfy me? NAH...i ve no regard for all these n i m thankful tt i realise this now n not when i m caught in the web of materialism n bound by the secular world later on in life. so what really satisfies me? what is my purpose in living this seemingly wretched life? m i one of the hive? what is my passion n do i hav sth to fight for, to spur me on even in the darkest nights of my soul? no i m not getting philosophical but seriously arent these basic questions WE HAVE ABSOLUTELY no answers but r just bugged by them all our life. some pp choose to dismiss these questions n 'get on with life'. as one of my frens put it, "life sux, shit happens, get on wif yr f***ing life." well i wont simply be satisfied n get on wif life....life's already sad, what's the point of gettin on wif it when u dun noe what u r living for. lest my frens r worried tt i m gonna attempt sucide a la in the bk 'survivor' by chuck palahniuk by piloting an airplane to its demise(oh i m flyin to HK on the 8th), rest assured the point i m driving across is: i m not contented with life on earth(we will never be anyway). all earthly things r temporal and what i need now is to find a cause, my passion, sth tt stirs me, spurs me n from which i derive joy, satisfaction, contentment n purpose. what will that be? i m clueless as of now but time will tell. meanwhile i wont spend time on spending time with meaningless pursuits. life has to be kept simple. |
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salvation (noun) The saving of the soul; the deliverance from sin and its consequences, and admission to eternal bliss, wrought for man by the atonement of Christ. |